Judging you.
Archive for March, 2010
Yeah. Bad Call.
Posted in Something Else, Writing, tagged comic sans, Judging, papyrus, terrible idea on March 12, 2010| Leave a Comment »
Spring Break
Posted in Crisis, Writing, tagged Crisis, existential, failure, In waking, nathan robinson, nausea, raise up roof beam, randy robertson, sartre, sleep, sleeping, sleepy, sorry, tattoo, work, working, Writing on March 9, 2010| 4 Comments »
More like Spring bullshit. You want to know what’s new with me? How about some existential crises? I also feel like I have no grasp on my own writing anymore. I may or may not get a tattoo with Raise Up Roof Beams lyrics and probably freak Nathan out, who, I have to remind myself, is not actually my friend no matter how much I like to believe that he is. I do not have his phone number. We do not hang out. I have never made him and Anne dinner.
Reading Sartre and cannot help but think of Beth as Anny and Randy as Antoine. For no reason at all. I really should not have taken two and a half philosophy classes this semester. Why? BECAUSE IT’S FUCKING ME UP. Also its so much goddamn reading. Of course I can go to class and reading a hundred pages every night. Why can’t I do that? I mean, that’s absolutely reasonable. I have lost my ability to connect with literature. Because I can’t do anything but read for main points. Except for with Sartre. I’m too emotional, and yet too distant. Walking paradox.
I wish I could have classy blog posts like Alison Feldish.
I wish I could be in Costa Rica like Abby.
But most of all I wish I could be with Kenny.
I have been working everyday, but I have not been doing enough work. I do not feel like I am capable of working hard enough to be a good writer, because I will always favor sleep over writing. I’m sorry. I’m sorry to myself.
“our mother has been dead for so long now”
More Nausea, staying up late tonight.
I hope it warms up so I can wear these dresses.
All my affections,
Liz
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